Vashta-Nerada91

I really never thought I'd be diagnosed with an eating disorder... but it happened. I hadn't realised that the DSM-V has a section for eating disorders that don't fit into the original 3 types... I have A-Typical Anorexia and my doctor wants me to go into an eating disorder program. I really don't know if I want to do that, as they are fairly intensive and I'm not sure I'm ready to have a dietitian tell me what I should be eating and such and I'm not sure that I'm ready to talk to a counselor about my eating either. I did, however, go for a complete blood workup which came back okay. I have definitely had a significant decline since my last t

I'm a little torn about where I'm at right now. On one hand, I'm having a lot more good days, some in a row even, and I've been managing to eat at least once a day without anyone having to ask or tell me to. I can eat some junk food again, although I don't feel great after and I struggle with eating for the rest of the day. On the other hand, my bad days are still really bad, to the point where I'm still scared of what I might do some days, and I still don't like being alone. I wish I could say the self-harm is getting better, but I don't think it really is; I may not be doing it every day, but some days I do it multiple times and I started c

Christmas is usually a difficult time for me; all of December is hard. When I was younger I hated how fake my family was at dinners and outings, and because of the high stress, at home there was a significant increase in screaming and fighting. I began to dislike Christmas altogether, and every year was more or less the same, and the feeling spread to the weeks before and after this holiday. During a particularly bad year, on December 29th, 2007, I attempted to take my own life, only to fail miserably and panic. This has added to my distaste for December as a whole. I also lost my grandfather a few years back mid January, and he was really